I usually have really good intuition about new guys I meet online. I can tell from email exchanges and phone calls whether or not we’re going to get along, and if the date is going to be something to look forward to.
Xerox and I had exchanged a few emails and a couple of phone calls, and to say the least, I wasn’t very impressed. To the point where I didn’t think I wanted to go on the date. He seemed to have more than a few quirks, which didn’t seem endearing. He also seemed to be unsure of himself, which was offsetting, considering that he’s 42. I figured that the date would be a bomb, but with the encouragement of my friends, I decided that I really didn’t have much to lose. Plus, if it was a bomb, at least I’d have some good things to write about on this blog, so all would not be lost.
I got home and started doing some work for grad school, watched some mindless t.v., and basically procrastinated on getting ready until the last possible moment. In the middle of this procrastination, Xerox called saying that he was leaving at 7pm, so he’d be at SR at 8:30 rather than 8pm. Not a problem at all.
I finally started getting ready, and told myself to just go, try to have a good time, and get on with it.
I was to meet Xerox in the magazine section of Borders, which is in the center of SR. That way, we could decide where we wanted to go. SR is a very cool place, and has tons of restaurants, bars, and shops — a little something for everyone.
I got to Borders, and looked through the window to see who was hanging out in the magazine section. I saw the back of one guy who I thought had to be him. Not bad, but wearing light jeans that were a bit high-waisted (i.e. dorky) and a black long sleeved t-shirt type of thing tucked into the jeans. I know it sounds so superficial, but I try to dress my best, even though I’m a plus-sized girl. I like the guys I’m seeing to also dress in a hip/stylish manner to show they care about how they present themselves. I was a bit discouraged, but then reminded myself that I’m not everyone’s idea of perfect either, and I should just get over that. Plus, a few shopping trips can always help someone improve their wardrobe.
I went straight to the magazine section, and saw him standing there. When he turned around he really caught my attention. He was even more good looking in person than in his pictures, which is always a nice surprise. He seemed genuinely happy to see me, which really elevated my mood.
We went to a wine bar and had a few glasses of wine and a meat and cheese platter. We were there for a few hours, and the conversation completely flowed. I was sitting there looking at this great-looking, sweet, gentle guy thinking, “What a fool I almost was. How could I even think of not coming on this date?” We were both so comfortable with each other, and in my head I was thanking my Dating Gurus for encouraging me to go on this date. Xerox was really complimentary, telling me how beautiful he thought I was, how nice my eyes were and that I had a “knockout smile.” The kind of flattery that makes you want to bask in the glow even more. The cool thing was that I knew he actually meant what he was saying and that it wasn’t a pickup line. This guy is so sincere that I don’t think he has it in him to be fake or “smooth.” We talked about all sorts of topics, and then at one point, we got on the subject of my uncle’s death. Xerox was really sweet, and then shared a bit about the death of his twin brother and how much it affected him. I couldn’t imagine losing a sibling, let alone a twin — the other half of you. He also opened up about his ex-fiance and how difficult the breakup of that relationship was.
Now I know what you’re thinking — one of the cardinal rules of first-dating is not to talk about exes, but you know what? I really didn’t mind. It was good to understand where he was coming from and why he is a bit self-conscious/unsure of himself. The relationship was quite dysfunctional, and he finally realized that he couldn’t improve it, and that they were both getting more and more toxic for each other, so he left her. I’m sure that took so much courage.
We decided to change the contemplative/somber tone of our conversation and move on to lighter topics. He told me about living in Monterey and about his job. It was fun to hear about all of the funny things that happen in his daily grind. He asked me about my job and was very interested in hearing more about what I was studying in grad school. It was so nice to talk to someone who was actually interested in getting to know me better.
At this point, we were done with the wine bar, and decided it was time to smoke before we made our next plan for the evening. At this point I felt like I had broken the ice with him enough to give him a bit of a bad time about the whole “Tatyana/Russian mail order bride” thing. He laughed when I asked him about it, and said that he deserved it if I “broke his balls” a bit about it. I told him there was no way I was going to let it slide, and that I’d probably give him a bad time about it for a long time. Then he said something about wanting to show me this lighthouse in Santa Cruz, and the mood of the night changed again. This time to one of mutual attraction and budding romance.
We went to another bar and ordered two shots of Patron and 2 beers. The bar was a bit crowded, but we were still able to talk and laugh and flirt. All of a sudden, he was kissing me, and it was the best first kiss I’ve had a in a long time. Totally unexpected at that moment, yet perfect.
We decided that we should probably get some coffee so we could wake up a bit before saying goodbye. He was heading to Berkeley that night so he could see his parents (how cute!), and it was already after 1:30am. I wanted to make sure he was awake enough to drive. Neither one of us was drunk by any means, but we were both “softly buzzing,” so we figured we’d go to this little coffee shop not to far from SR.
Again we sat there completely comfortable with each other. He told me how much he had looked forward to meeting me (pangs of guilt on my end, as I couldn’t honestly say the same thing back) and that the date totally surpassed all of his expectations. Now I could totally concur with him, and told him how much fun I had had with him.
I drove him back to his car, and we ended the evening with some sweet kisses.
What a fabulous night! I’m so glad that for once my intuition was completely wrong.
Xerox just called me and said that he’d be coming through my city on his way back home, and wondered if I wanted to meet up for a bit. I told him I’d love to, and I absolutely meant it.
This time, I’m totally looking forward to seeing him!